I’m shaking. WHAT PROMISE YOU WORTHLESS SON OF A BITCH?! WHAT ELSE ARE YOU NOT TELLING ME?!
I’m going to kill her. Bitch I will kill you. Come here and try to butt into our lives and I will show you what happens. I need to get into a fight. I need to be medicated. I need to be something. I’m going completely crazy.
Today has been awful. This month has been awful. I think I’m leaving to go hide for a few weeks, maybe just until finals are over. Maybe until October. I wish Ali were here. I feel so torn and crazy and manic and sick. I would like to disappear. And not really disappear from anyone else, but I would like to disappear from myself. So I didn’t have to think so much for awhile.
Fuck me. Fuck him. Fuck you for screwing me over. Fuck most people I see walking down the street or I see on the Internet. Fuck you.